He wanted us to know he had tried
In spending that day with everyone, I definitely had the picture in my head that he was letting them know that he wanted to protect them and that he would do whatever it took to ensure their safety.
He had developed a relationship with law enforcement – they had told my sister how much they liked John and felt bad for him when he was overcome by the effects of schizophrenia. They checked in on him periodically so I think John knew they would be able to share with my family how much he tried. These are preparations that I think John made for us.
He gave my boyfriend his approval
I was 14 years old, that day in the car with him, but I did sense some odd behaviour the day before. The day before he died he told me he approved of my boyfriend and that he would make a great husband to me. That was the last time I saw him.
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